It’s not a good sign
I am so sick of learning about all the horrible diseases and conditions that people have. At the moment my head is full of mental illnesses and it’s just so horrible what some people have to deal with in their lives. Whether it’s depression where someone just can’t see the point in living anymore or shizophrenia where a person has a persecutory radio going on in their head; or dementia where someone slowly loses their mind, are constantly confused, and can’t even hold a conversation or if someone has a “personality disorder” where the events of your life have affected your personality to such an extent that you are officially classified as sick.
I worry that this is my chosen career. At the minute, I’m dealing with the mental illnesses but phyical illnesses can be just as bad: Parkinsons/MS where you lose control of your body and mind, Cancer where you have to face your own mortality and deal with the horrible effects of chemotherapy, Arthritis when even opening a door is a challenge, Spinal Injury causing paralysis, Amputations, chronic pain, chronic fatigue, Stroke… The list is never ending.
In theory, I like people and I like learning about different conditions but I don’t know if I can deal with being confronted with real people with these unfortunate conditions.
My head hurts :(.
