The most wonderful time of the year?
I haven’t posted in a while, so I thought I would tell you what is going on in my life.
Uni
- Mental Health assignment
- Environmental Contexts assignment
- Children and Young People presentation and assignment
- Due for this week and next. Presentation more or less done, just being my perfectionist self and trying to fine-tune. Mental Health started, feeling confident because I have a kick-ass case study structure which I wrote while on placement and totally forgot about.
- Haven’t started the Environmental Contexts which is a PROJECT, not an essay. Previous year’s work has been 50-100 pages long… there’s no way mine will be that.
- Haven’t started the children’s assignment but it’s based on my presentation, hopefully won’t be too difficult.
- Who the fuck am I kidding, I am going to die.
- Entire term has been a joke in terms of organisation. Tons of guest lecturers (who are interesting but very specfic to their area of expertise), not being able to see our module co-ordinators because they aren’t even teaching because they are involved in research, lectures being rescheduled, assignment questions being changed, deadlines being changed, assessments being unavailable… we haven’t even had a course director since September! Cuts have hit us hard man and it has affected the standard of education.
Work
- No money
- Finally got training dates for this care assistant job I got in October
- Training dates fall on an important placement preparation day which I missed last year as well (due to working as well!). Lecturer will not meet me to discuss the placement at any other time. But I need the money and had to wait 2 months for these dates.
- Fuck
Christmas
- No money!!
- Prolonged exposure to family and absence of social life
Family
- Mum’s disease is officially raging through her despite all the poisons they pump into her. The drugs have failed. She is going to Cambridge for a second opinion this week but they have tried all the drugs I have heard of and researched and none of them have worked.
- It’s all I can think about, so I sit here with my mental health textbooks and my Children’s presentation and all I can think about is if she is put on an end-of-life care plan then why the fuck would I waste my time at uni when I could be at home to help her. I can do uni any time, I can’t get THIS time back.
Social
- Can count the friends who care about this shit on one hand
- Have a play coming up which REQUIRES 4 hours of rehersal a week even though it’s 6 weeks away and we have been rehearsing for months. The people involved have no consideration how much uni work I have on, or how little I care about this stupid fucking play in the mess that is my life.
- BOYS! BOY! Why do you make me feel bad for being too busy to see you? I HAVE OTHER PRIORITIES that are more important than getting to know you! You are cute, but uni, family, money, friends are more important.
- Haven’t been dancing in weeks, I feel it like a hole in my heart. It’s the lack of dancing for sure and not the reality that my mum is dying.
- My house is fucking cold even though the heat has been on for hours. The boiler keeps breaking down and I have to fiddle with it even though I have no clue what I’m doing and am probably doing it wrong.
Would really like a hug please.
